谁会不喜欢被宠的感觉啊？
对吗？hahahs.
现在我想只有婆婆爷爷会比较宠我了。
所以啊，现在我超喜欢他们来我家的。因为，他们会带很多我们喜欢吃的东西给我们。
这就代表了他们的爱与关心啊。
hahahs, yeah they come our house today.
& they bring loads of food. hahs. :D
我承认他们以前是有点偏心，那时候我也真的好难过。
可是，我知道他们现在不是这样子的了，现在婆婆爷爷超疼我们的。
所以嘛，思漪，以后一定一定要好好孝顺他们，不能忘记他们对你的好，对你的照顾！
I really LOVE them loads. hahahs. :D:D
Actually, I do know around me, there're still people caring for me.
My friends, My family. (:
They do give me support & the motivation I need alot alot.
hahs, I hope this positive mindset can last,
cos' I really do not want to stay unhappy anymore lerhs.
So, Szeyee... STAY POSITIVE!! :D:D:D JIAYOUS!!
我好烦，好烦，好烦啊!!!
现在真的很烦啊！
救命啊！我头脑已经快要爆炸了！
拜托，不要再拿这种事情来烦我了好吗？
思漪，你真的是大白痴，大笨蛋！
我狠狠哭。
OMYOMY!!
I'm feeling hungry! at this time! OhhNO!
Feel like eating the cakes. Can't resist the temptation.
Hahs. It's going to rain soon!
Hope I'll have a good sleep tonight. No more nightmare please!
Sleep tight, Szeyee :D
Black & White
Life is meaningless right now.
Times had changed. Everything has changed. I've changed.
I become emotional. I become pessimistic.
I become distracted. I become insensitive.
I become over-suspicious. I become short-tempered.
I'm clueless on what's happening.
I feel apologetic towards my family & friends who have to tolerate my nonsense.
Sometimes, I don't mean what I say. I don't mean what I do.
Forgive me please.
Just give me some more time. To think through everything.
Cos' I hate what I am now. This is just not me!
I'll change back to the normal me, all I need is time.
So, now my life is just black & white.
However, black & white is not that bad as you think.
Two colours. Two regions. Two extremes.
Simple, not complicated.
Contradicting.
That's what I'm feeling right now.
From now on, I'll endure & let go.
From now on, I'll smile sadly.
I dare
not to dream about catching my 100th planes.I dare not to think of the 11:11 that my wishes will come true.
I afraid of giving myself HOPE & losing it the next moment.
I'm just a living zombie.
Tmr is Napfa Test ler. 5 stations. I'm worried & afraid.
I don't know why leh. I don't think I can do well this time. This time will be the last time as well.
Just Do Your Best barhs, SzeYee!
ohhya, & Mother's Day is around the corner.
however, I still have no idea what to get for my beloved mummy Y!
But, tomorrow going Jurong Point to see see barhs. hahs.
We went Marina Barra9e to celebrate XiangQin's Birthday! :D
had fun during the picnic. of course hahs. will update on this soon. (maybe friday?)
cos' got alot photos to post and upload in the facebook arhs. This week very busy arhs.
Hahas (: so be right back...
Loves, Sze Yee.
I'm sleeping soon ler. Hahs. :D
Even though I planned to do my homework through the midnight.
But, don't think I can tahan arhs.
Gonna wake up at ard 8am tmr to prepare for the picnic! (:
So, Good Nights~
Loves.
Should I go?
ShangHai Expo.
I want to go. & my parents most probably allow too.
But something is holding me back.
I just feel...
I should really change my mindset.Seriously. I can't carry on with this kind of thinking. Just as my Dad had said.
" You can't wait for the ones around you to change just to adapt to your behaviour/needs, the one who have to change is you, yourself."
Yeah, I agree with him too. Or else the one in the disadvantage is just me, myself.
No one will care the state you are in. Except your family. Your loved ones.
Yeah, think I should really go. It will be a good experience.
Cos'...
1. It will be the first time I'm going to Shanghai. & it's their Shanghai Expo.
It's a 难得的机会!
2. It will also be the first time going overseas with my friends hahs. will have good & memorable memories right?
Hahas. Even though my parents do suggest to bring us there(Shanghai Expo). But, the probability is low larhs hahs. Ohhya, almost forgot. The trip is from 3June to 7June. I may have to attend my cousin's wedding in one of the island in Malacca (don't know what the island called?) I haven't been there before. & it will be during 5-6June. It CLASH! D:
Tmr, 3 May! We going to Marina Barrage to give XiangQin a SURPRISE Birthday Celebration! hahas, hope we have loads of fun! (:
