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Tuesday, May 18, 2010 - 12:23 AM

black & white

Black & White

Life is meaningless right now.

Times had changed. Everything has changed. I've changed.

I become emotional. I become pessimistic.

I become distracted. I become insensitive.

I become over-suspicious. I become short-tempered.

I'm clueless on what's happening.

I feel apologetic towards my family & friends who have to tolerate my nonsense.

Sometimes, I don't mean what I say. I don't mean what I do.

Forgive me please.

Just give me some more time. To think through everything.

Cos' I hate what I am now. This is just not me!

I'll change back to the normal me, all I need is time.

So, now my life is just black & white.

However, black & white is not that bad as you think.

Two colours. Two regions. Two extremes.

Simple, not complicated.

Contradicting.

That's what I'm feeling right now.

From now on, I'll endure & let go.

From now on, I'll smile sadly.

I dare not to dream about catching my 100th planes.

I dare not to think of the 11:11 that my wishes will come true.

I afraid of giving myself HOPE & losing it the next moment.

I'm just a living zombie.