Many things to be said. As said in my previous post, you've already been hidden so well at the deepest side of my heart. But, WHY? You dug it out and left me there alone once again to bury it. You know, it does take me a long period of time to do that. I'm afraid that's the last time I'm going to see you. So close yet so far. Cuz you're leaving and I'm going to leave soon as well. I'm not sure if I'm coming back, I don't want you to be reason of even if I'm going to. I still remember my friend once asked me, 'What's Eyecandy?', 'How do you know he's just an Eyecandy?'. I don't know how to answer him. But, today I know the answer, I finally understand the difference between Eyecandy and someone you like. (: Anyway, it just left me one more month to continue with all these. After that, I'm going to start my new chapter of life, leaving all these behind. I'm able to do that, I'd be able to. Mushroom head.♥
I'm terribly upset right now because most of my colleagues that I'm close with are leaving, one of them is my batch-mate who left yesterday. Haiyo, why must your left before me? ); But, I've to tell myself once again, there're many people who would come into your life and left. That has been my weakness always, can't bear to leave somewhere when I've strong feelings towards the people and places there. One more month, I'm going to leave here, no more extension, I told myself.
One last thing, I SO WANNA GO FOR A HOLIDAY before my school starts!! Plan is to go Bintan for two to three days. But, Mummy only allows me to go if I'm going with a group of friends and not just three girls. Or another option is to go with tour agency but I still can't find one now. God, please bless me. Let me go for a GETAWAY to somewhere please. Make this possible. (;
hehe, everything I wanna said is all out now, feel more relaxed.(: I still can't sleep, don't know why. But, anyway doing PM shift later on so can wake up a little bit late uh. And looking forward towards my next few off days, all are planned. Shopping!♥ Dyeing my hair!♥ And meeting up with Zhiting!!♥ Long time since I last saw her, miss her badly. Oh ya, I've been putting on some weight lately due to the main culprit: MACDONALD'S cuz recently have been working till quite late, hence only left with Mac's to settle my dinner cum supper. hehe. Feeling damn guilty. Bleh.
Alright, I think it's time to turn in even though I can't seem to fall asleep or else tomorrow would be yawning all day long. Hahhs. Goodnights♥, would update soon once I'm free again. (;
I admit I was super happy the moment I heard that.
But, after much thinking, I was happy only for that moment.
I'm not going to be the lucky one.
Lady Luck is always not on my side.
I'm afraid that the one you're referring to is not me once again.
I dare not pin high hope this time round.
I'm scared.
I'm scared that the higher I'd fall.
True, after much thinking, we do have many similarities that I'm afraid you can't differentiate.
You'd have mistook her as me.
I've had enough.
I've already put it aside, forgetting about it as time goes by.
But now, just your one question, you dig it all out again.
I've buried it so well.
It's alright, to me, you're just a fiction.
No matter what the real answer is, I don't wish to know.
Because I've a intuition that it's not me again.
Yours sincerely
Szeyee
Woohoo~
June is here! Time flies, we're already halfway past 2011.
hehe, today is my offday but I've to work four days straight after today including two full-shifts. ]: Slacking at home, sleep like nobody's business until half past noon.
}: Can't join clique for XiaoQi's birthday celebration at Changi Airport.
}: Alone at home this Saturday and Sunday.
hehe, I realised being happy or sad, the answer always lies within us. Expect nothing and you'll be surprised of something. Human is always like that, likes to dream but always gets disappointed when things does not go the way that we want it to. Actually, it all depends on the way of thinking that we have; we dream to live, we live to dream. It just depends how we take upon disappointment and still dare to dream no matter what.
{: I love where I'm working right now.
{; I love the life that I'm having right now.
I have to know that it's okay to be unhappy at some times, but not at all times. It'll affect those who care and love you. So for now, when I'm sad, I'll just cry it all out and forget all about it the next moment. Anyway, it depends all on me right! hehe. I want those who care and love me to be happy, so at the first place, I've to achieve that as well. [:
haha, my pay is still not yet in! Oh gosh, but my list of things that I want is keep on going. Oh ya, for the past few days, I've been having FOC sauna, drain every sweat out of me. Wondering why? Because the air-con for the entire theme park is under service! I really hope the air-con will be doing fine tomorrow! heh.
