16.07.2011
I still remember that I'm so excited about that day because Mummy promised me to get my lovely laptop and camera. FINALLY! I'ld be able to cancel these two off my wishlist which have stayed there for a long time. BIG SMILE! (:
19.07.2011
That day, I counted. That would be the sixth times I went back Universal Studios to play. It's a Tuesday, with lesser crowd of course. C told me that you'll be working that day but, once again it's just a disappointment. I'm used to it. But, it's still a great day spent with my colleagues afterall!xD
21.07.2011
Today, I'm bored to tears in Darkroom because there're only two people working. PATHETIC. Everything's alright, until the moment we were going home together. C told me. I went silent and smiled. The next moment I really don't feel like talking. I plugged in my earpiece. Pardon me. C and W really tolerated this emotional me. Sorry! But, I really have no mood for anything.
And we went for Mac's AGAIN. And W told me something that should be quite shocking. But, I take it well. I'm quite surprised at myself too, is it because I realised it long ago? Just like yesterday, I saw you'all walking out of the store together happily, I don't understand why I've that kind of feeling. JEALOUSY? I don't know why I start to bother about it? I'm confused.
22.07.2011; 01:00
I feel really vexed now. I can't wait to get everything off my mind. Is it worth it all this while? I've to keep reminding myself not to do something I'ld regret in future. I'm done with it, seriously. I'd fall so many times that I don't bother to get up anymore. People tell me to go after it if I wanted it so much. At least you tried, you've no regrets; they said. No, I don't feel that way, sorry. What's mine is mine, anything that don't belongs to me, would never belong to me no matter how hard I tried. I'ld rather give it up, call me a coward or anything that you want. I don't care. I admit I'm not as brave as you. I'ld still feel this way. Even if you like something so much but you know it don't suit you, why still bother to hold it so tightly and make yourself feel terrible. But still, it's easier to be said than done. The only thing harder than letting go is moving on.
PS: Thanks H! Making me laugh after this long and tiring day. (:
