I feel totally vexed and upset right now. I hate how things changes just like that. I hate the time that my plans are ruined. And I hate how chances slipped through my fingers just like that. I hate the reason why I don't deserve a second chance.
Lesson learnt: Never pin high hopes on something or expect something more, the end result you'll get is all the disappointment, and nothing else.
You remind me of him once again.
You told me that you want him to be by your side and never go away.
You said that's impossible but I replied nothing's impossible.
Back then, thinking of him has became a habit of mine.
Yet now, I've changed that bad habit and let my smile shines.
It's hard to move on when you're still holding on.
Till then, I've nothing more to hold on and choose to let go.
Behind of my smile is things that you don't understand.
Is bits and pieces of me that left there all alone.
To keep you smiling, I've to let my tears flow.
That's the sacrifice that I knew all along.
In this complicated world of yours, I decided to leave.
World of pain and misery, the life I'ld not want to lead.
Forgetting doesn't make it all better, it just makes you hurt more when you remember.
11/11/11.
A beautiful day indeed. Minus the POA test and the long lectures we have today. Haha. SOoo have you made your wish at the 11:11? Haha, I don't care it's just a myth or something but I rather choose to believe it. (: Anyway, I've always love the number eleven so it actually somehow made my day by looking at the awesome date that we have today.♥
And tomorrow marks the last day of my torture. Haha. Alright, I mean the last day of working as a banquet waitress in Raffles Hotel. It would be my last day, I guess. Although it's just going to be my fourth day working over there, but it's really super tiring and your whole body will ache. ): And the colleagues are also not very friendly and sociable though. SOoo, I've decided not to work there anymore, cos' I really could not work at somewhere which I don't like. It could really be a torture to me, I'd rather work at somewhere else whereby the pay is lower but has a fun environment that I feel comfortable in. Fussy yeah? Haha. That's Sagittarius! They would prefer to work at somewhere they like and have more freedom, rather than being constrained. Hence, wish me luck and I really need time to FLY tomorrow alright! (:
Oh dear! Why do I still feel that tinge of jealousy?
I get so frustrated that easily, and I know that I shouldn't have been doing that.
Still a happy day though! Haha. Although we've a hard time doing our POA Assignment today, continuing to pull our hair and stress over it, but at least we have completed it. Moreover, I've a fun time with Ting today!:D Watched 23:59; it's so funny larh, more like a comedy than a horror movie. But it's still somehow scary haha. It has been ages since I went to town, can't recognise all the routes already. ): or you can just call me a 路痴.
Alright, just a short post today. I'm going to turn in early, tomorrow still have a long day to go. )): Another reason to sleep earlier today haha, only Zhiting will know arh. (:
#P.S.: Haha, such a coincidence to bump into Uncle and Huifen at Cineleisure!xD
My dear Minho, why are you so adorable? Haha. Fanatical Me! >.<
Oh well, having a headache from all the thinking of POA!
Seriously we're pulling our hair while doing the assignment!
I wonder how am I going to cope with the test the coming week?!
Sighhh. Feeling so tired lately; awake with doses of caffeine.
Worse still, have to start work this Saturday which would end at 1am.
Facing so many problems. MONEY!$$ STUDIES!@.@ WORK! @$#%$
Oh well oh well, give myself a break tomorrow! ^.^
Catching a horror movie, 23:59 with Z.T.! (:
GOODNIGHTS PEEPS! CANDY DREAMS! ♥
#PS: HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MY DEAR GUIN GUIN! ♥
And today is the first day of November! (: Argh, I don't know why my eyes are hurting so much, you can't see any difference though, but it really hurts a lot. )): And today, I went for the TCC's training, they're quite strict though and you know I'm those clumsy+blur kind so must be ultra careful. Sighh, and tomorrow got school again! ECONOMICS LECTURE! )): Dreaded. I just hope my eyes can get better by tomorrow and have the energy and motivation for school! (: 加油!
