原来这一切，所有的一切都是谎言，你所编制的美丽的谎言.
可是谎言始终都会被揭穿的，现在我终于看清了.
一再的被你欺骗，一次又一次的选择原谅，最后被伤的遍体鳞伤的只是自己.
我承认被你气哭了，可是这不就是你想要看到的吗？
呵呵，这是最后一次了，以后都不再重要了.
原来我在你眼里只是一个傻子，让你骗的团团转.
原来我在你眼里只是一个代替品，让你补上那空虚的位置.
原来我在你眼里什么都不是，可有可无.
我所说的每个对不起都是真心诚意的，对你来说却无所谓.
一再的忍让是因为还在乎，可是那将都会是过去了.
过去了，就不会再抱怨了，不会再去解释，不会再过问，不会再提到以前了.
谢谢你让我看清了这一切，教会我不应该轻易的相信别人.
我会记得这一点的. 其他的就没有必要了.
你想要删除掉，就删除吧.
你决定要死心了，就死了这条心吧.
你想要胡言乱语，就去说吧.
我已经不在乎了，连朋友也没得做也没关系了，结束了，真的.
I'm not trying to get nasty over here, because I know that all these sadness would soon be over.
But I just need a place to rant everything out, so that I can forget all these as soon as possible.
Do you know what? It actually started well, and I tried to get ourselves into a nice conversation. Yes, I've to get myself trying. I don't know why, because every time if we dine out, it will turn out bad. Well, it's not an exception for today too, I ruined it by saying something I shouldn't have. I guess that's the problem that I've to get myself changed, but am I not the only one who should change as well?
Frankly speaking, I've the thought that you would do that to me. But it turned out it's another way round, and I was waiting for you to do the same thing to me too, you didn't. Everything that I said, you've to tweak it into an unpleasant way. Why, why can't we just have that same frequency, why I've done the same thing as him, but I got it treated differently. It's really hard sometimes to convince myself that you're not biased towards both of us. I'm a blockhead, if you've anything to say, please don't beat around the bush, I won't get it. They told me to put myself in your shoes and understand your point of view, but being a little selfish, I'ld like to ask that have you put yourself in my shoes then?
It's not like before anymore, it really pains me to get to think of that. We're those two who find it hard to express our feelings well, so often we got each other wronged. But I really, really don't want it to happen. Mummy, I still love you as much. As much as before, my love for you will never change. Do you know that? I'm still the same girl as before, who needs your hugs and kisses. But how to get myself to tell you that? How to get myself to say 'I love you' and 'I'm sorry'? I really don't know how, Mummy.
Mummy, I still love you. As much as before.
就知道自己不应该回去，回去了又怎样，只有让自己的心情更郁闷.
自己老是这样，爱折磨自己，看不开，放不开.
是不是早已习惯不去争取，还是早已累了.
不是的，我只是不想让自己去变成一个自己讨厌的人.
多虚假，多虚伪，害怕自己到时候都认不清自己，开始瞧不起自己.
对，我不可以这个样子，我一定要保持现在的自己，一定要控制自己.
不能让那躲在最深，最暗处的心魔战胜自己. 不可以! 绝对不行!
我真的只想做回自己，根本不想带着那又难看，又重的面具，
然后到了无人的地方，才把它脱下，才来一个人自己崩溃.
我真的很不愿意，可是我可以吗？
自己的性格自己最清楚，不喜欢被人忽视，不想事情没按照自己的意愿走.
那样的自己很自私，根本不会替别人着想，所以只能带上那面具，
隐藏自己的不悦，不想也影响到身边朋友的情绪.
是不是也是另一种的虚假，对不起，真的很对不起，我真的也不想这样的.
我讨厌虚伪，假情假意的人，我绝对不能让自己也变成这样.
我会改，把那坏脾气，那不好的态度，那份固执，都改掉.
我要学会看得开，放得下，不去想，也不去管那些无关紧要的东西.
只有这样我才能拿下那面具，做回真正的自己，开朗活泼的自己.
