An ordinary girl who is EIGHTEEN. Once believes in fairytale until she knows it'll not come true. LOVES airplanes & stars in the night. LOVES to daydream. Does have her fears that she could not conquer.

Listen to your Heart.

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Beautiful memories.

January 2010
February 2010
March 2010
April 2010
May 2010
June 2010
July 2010
August 2010
September 2010
October 2010
November 2010
December 2010
January 2011
February 2011
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April 2011
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January 2012
February 2012
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July 2012
May 2013

Finally, I kind of understand that feeling.

就是那从内心发出的冷淡，不再特地的去在乎，不再特地的去关心，不再特地的去挽回一切。
一切好像都无所谓了，你的感受我不想再知道，一些误会我也不想再解释。都不重要了。
原来是这样，原来被伤了很深是这样，你不会再生气，不会再伤心，而是让时间来淡化这一切。

TIRED. Sick and tired of every single thing, just wanting to be happy.
Well, the only moment that I'm truly happy is when I'm with my friends, I want to be with them.
But I'm like the one who is suggesting everything, I'm not sure if they really wanted to.
I feel like I'm bothering them with my own pathetic problems. Am I thinking too much AGAIN?

I want to be out of here, to be in a place that I have never been before.
I don't want to stick to this routine, it's destroying me, it makes me feel like a living zombie.
I feel like I've lost myself somewhere, can't seem to find it back. Terrible.

Looking back the posts that I've written, months ago, years ago.
I seemed to be more and more gloomy and negative, all I do to this blog is all rantings and complains.
No more things that I'm looking forward to anymore. No more drive and motivation to do anything anymore.
Gosh, since when I've became like that and why do I become someone I don't used to know anymore?
And now, I'm not even determined to change for better, and allow my life to be wasted just like that.
And again, I start to grumble. SIGHHH. Happiness seems to be so impossible.